i hope you all had a better day than i did

It's been one of those days. Lets just put it this way - it started off by me finding out that my front windshield on my car was busted. Some thugs busted up the windshields of about 20 cars down my street...I've never seen anything like that in my life. It was crazy!!!


I had to shell out $150 dollars for a replacement this morning. At least they were able to salvage my newly brought city sticker.

Blah!!!

the most fitting quote ever

I updated the tea cup wisdom quote on my page. It seems to hit home pretty hard nowadays for me. For those curious of its origins, it's taken from a Common song named "Real People" - from his new cd title "Be"

TEA CUP WISDOM --> "knowing when I'm weak is when I'm really being strong"

How true it is!! How true it is!!

singing the "no money" blues

I just paid my first round of bills and realized that I am already $400 in deficit from my budget for the month. OH LORD HAVE MERCY!! Why you ask? Well: Not only is the remodeling of my basement draining me financially, but (SURPRISE) my water bill was due today AND my energy bill was astronomical thanks to the recent heat wave in chicago and my need to have air conditioning on - even when I am not home so my dog doesn't die of heat stroke while I'm at work.

Needless to say, I am rounding up my strong 'bout of depression by listening to songs like:

~ "HURT" (NIN)
~ "King of Sorrow" (Sade)
~ "I'm a Bitch" (Meredith Brooks)
~ "I'm Going Down" (Mary J.)
~ "Iris" (Goo Goo Dolls)

On the bright side, the office is all but DEAD this week. Meaning, while all the big bosses are gone, the rest of us can play. Well, not really play, but at least leave work a lil early. YEHAW!!!

For those who are wondering, I did slip up and smoke a little something this weekend (damn!!). But I am back on track, using the patch, chewing lots of gum, and drinking cupful after cupful Tropical Green Tea from Might Leaf Tea Company.

museless

As of lately, I seemed to have lacked my muse. So instead of some long, witty post, I shall swipe this personalized test from BEATS and RANTS 2.2: The Best Places to Live(via Real Estate Journal).

Looking at both his & my results, all I can think is: either we are alot alike, or the test has a predisposition to place Boston, San Francisco, and Long Island at the top.

1 100 Boston, MA-NH-ME 3,263,060
2 95 San Francisco, CA 1,655,454
3 93 Long Island, NY 2,660,285
4 90 Washington, DC-MD-VA-WV 4,563,123
5 87 New York, NY 8,643,437
6 83 Chicago, IL 7,733,876
7 81 Pittsburgh, PA 2,379,411
8 81 Bergen-Passaic, NJ 1,311,331
9 81 Middlesex-Somerset-Hunterdon, NJ 1,091,097
10 80 Minneapolis-St. Paul, MN-WI 2,765,116
11 80 Rochester, MN 113,182

What does your say ?

ten random things i did to take my mind off marlboros

1. worked out on my new elliptical machine (its a nordic trac, compliments of the bf)
2. filled my ipod with over 2 days of music (perfect to work out on said nordic trac)
3. did laundry while vacuuming my WHOLE house (wow...talk about multi tasking)
4. realized it was 48 hours since my last smoke, and thought "somewhere in my body, nerve endings are starting to regrow"
5. then thought about how great a cigarette would be (actually, take that number and times it by 50 times a day)
6. chewed my nails while in rush hour traffic (ewww I know, but as you can see I'm orally fixated)
7. somehow sprained the muscle behind my knee
8. went to the Mexican Fine Arts Museum to almost get kicked out of the Chicano art exhibit for taking above picture (it was SOOO worth it)
9. wish I knew voodoo so I could hex Bush
10. fell in love with the bf all over again

the nutshell: I'm not doing so bad

birthdays not quite forgotten

Don't you hate those birthdays you just can't seem to forget no matter how hard you try to block them? Like your creepy ex of 6 years, or those people once great friends, only to become enemies, or even worse: your asshole of a boss that somehow expects a gift from YOU, whom gets paid a measly quarter for each dollar he makes?

Today is one of those days. It's my cousins /old best friends birthday. Not only are we blood family, we were best friends for many years. But, somewhere along the way she turned into a self loathing bitch who thinks everyone owes her something while she, SHE sits on her ass, smokes pot all day, and weasels my aunts money. In essence, she has pissed me off & fucked me over more times than I will admit.

I knew in my heart for a long time that just having her in my life was traumatizing and stressing me out more than I was willing to endure. Thus, earlier this year, I erased her from my life: removed her from cellphone book & my yahoo messenger, and just stopped calling. And, I never looked back...til today, her 28th birthday.

Today I have such a strong urge to call her just to wish her well. I want to buy her a drink or buy her some flowers... 1/2 knowing she's not worth it and probably wouldn't even appreciate the gesture anyway...

So instead I just lay on my couch and just send her positive energy, knowing this day will forever be one of those birthdays that I will never quite forget for the rest of my life...

helpful reading material

I know I look like a COMPLETE IDIOT reading this book WHILE SMOKING in the smoking room @ work, but I just don't give a %$#@!!!