Thursday, July 27, 2006

back to your regularly scheduled blog...

Sorry for the lack of posts lately, but I find myself beside myself - just quietly enjoying life to the fullest. For the past few weeks I have been keeping myself busy by:

~ playing the "I hate Bush" game in my know the one where you don't wish death upon him, just simply fantasize what his hell would look like (you know you want to try it). My favorite thus far is an eternity of him being buttfucked so he can get a taste for what he's been doing to the U.S. and various countries around the world since he cheated his way into office (Did I mention I love this game?)

~ being a total bookslut. I have been reading an average of a book or two a week, with my most recent reads being "An Ordinary Man", "Lolita", "Sex, Time and Power: How Women's Sexuality Changed the Course of Human Evolution", and "Life of Pi"

~Enjoying the celebration of 4 years of bliss with the boyfriend (our anniversary was on Monday, ya'll)

~ going bike-riding on my new Fuji bike

~ stretching out the gas in my car as long as humanly possible before filling it back up again (I've been down to the wire, I'm afraid)

~ knitting a beautiful lilac scarf (I promise to post a picture of my first solo project when I'm done with it)

~ catching up (and then some) with an old friend from high school via yahoo messenger (my, how times have changed since then)

~ actually forgoing my life as a hermit and venturing outside to socialize in the form of dinner with friends, house parties, bar-b-ques, and the like

~Patiently awaiting the 1st of the month for my payroll and rent checks to roll through (finally, some credits instead of debits are appearing in my checking account)

In any case, I will try to get back into the habit of blogging more often again. I hope you all are enjoying your summer as much as I am !

Friday, July 14, 2006

this is me...

I know ~ I have a long way to go to reach my goals - but I am getting there slowly

I believe ~ everything happens for a reason, no matter how fucked up it seems at first

I fought ~ the desire to sell myself short too many times to count..and still do to this day

I am angered ~ by ignorance and selfish people

I love ~ the feeling I get when he holds me in the middle of the night

I need ~ a vacation (and a manicure)

I take ~ the problems of the world onto my shoulders and in my heart

I hear ~ my radio playing in my cubicle - Gnarls Barkley to be exact

I drink ~ green tea like its crack

I hate ~ the smell of smoke...yet I can't seem to quit smoking

I use ~ my smile as a defense mechanism

I want ~ to understand the reason for my existence

I decided ~ I am happy with life just the way it is at the moment

I like ~ sleeping in on the weekends - when my dog lets me

I am ~ finally registered for a class for my masters...finally

I feel ~ out of place in the world more times than I care to admit

I left ~ my feelings of inadequacy at the door this morning

I do ~ not know how to say no to people...even when I should

I hope ~ to some day make a difference in someone's life

I dream ~ of growing old with him...

I drive ~ a car that's been in the shop a 3 whopping times within the last month & a half

I listen ~ to the whispers and shouts of my heart, my mind, and my soul daily

I type ~ fast and furiously - albeit with many spelling mistakes (thank god for spell check)

I think ~ too much, non stop, never ending

I wish ~ war would be a thing of the past..though I believe it never will

I compensate ~ for my mistakes with a lot of heart

I regret ~ that I inadvertently broke the hearts of many people in my short life span

I care ~ too much at times about things I cannot control

I should ~ hang out with my girls more often..really i should

I am not always ~ the nicest person in the world - blame it on the boriqua genes

I said ~ "life isn't about finding yourself, its about creating yourself" and meant it...

I wonder ~ if the roadkill on the street are really successful suicides by depressed animals

I changed ~ my life despite the innate fears of change I hold inside

I cry ~ whenever the tears need to make their appearance

I am ~ a symphony of contradictions at times

I am not ~ as self-confident as I used to be

I lose ~ my cool in traffic (one hour commutes with no a/c in the summer is killer)

I leave ~ soul naked as a child...can you accept me for me ?

ganked from ms mickey glitter