Thursday, October 21, 2004

Semi Hiatus

I'm sorry to those...oh...lets just say, two individuals who keep checking my blog semi religiously only to be disappointed to find not one new post in weeks. Sigh. I really do try to post, but all I seem to do lately is work and sleep. As it stands, I have no time for family, friends, or even myself. Needless to say, I am starting to get really tired of working my job. The joy I had just two months ago coming into work (oh...its for the children...yey!!!!) has since diminished and been replaced by crankiness. While I thought I would be making a pretty penny vs. my other job, when broken down...I actually only make about $100 more than I did before. In addition, when you take into account the 60-75 hour work weeks I have been pulling, I probably make less than the cashier at your local McDonalds. Since I am salaried, there is no such thing as overtime here. It's sad, sad, sad I tell you. I better get one FAT bonus I tell you that or else my boss can kiss my @ss....On one Positive note, I have lost a whole pants size. I call it the Platform Diet (named after my company of course).

Anyhow, during the last week or so, I have seriously considered taking down My Complex Simplicity completely since it has become so damn neglected, but truthfully, I don't have the heart. I love this blog too much. It has provided me with an outlet that I never knew existed, allowed me to expand my cyber network of friends, and lets me plain and simply express myself to anyone who cares to listen. How can I just give that up? I CAN'T....

SOOOO, I have to make more of an effort to make ME smile. I need to start dancing in the street for no other reason other than the song that’s playing in my head, I need to light a few candles as I listen to Sade while eating a whole Triple Decker Sundae complete with chocolate wafers and whipped cream. I need to cuddle with my puppy and have some serious quality time with my man for a change.

But, first, I need to start taking some vitamins or something cuz...I'm Tired ya'll. And I have to get back to work. So, laters.

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

party's my birthday !!

"Today I'm 26 years old. For the first time in my life, I'm actually closer to being 30 than I am to 20. SHIT!!" That was the first thought that crossed my mind as I woke up this morning.

But, don't get me wrong, as the day progressed, I eventually got over it…somehow lying myself into thinking that my babyface and constant mirage of shocked reactions I get when I tell my age to people, will somehow buy me a few more years before I actually start to look like the vieja I am slowly becoming.

Anywho...'almost turning 30' really made me think about how much I've changed over the past few years. Here's a brief synopsis of me at 21 vs. me at 26.

At 21...I didn't know what I wanted to do 'when I grew up'
At 26...I still don't know what I want to do when I grow up, but at least I love my job

At 21...I was saving for a car
At 26..I just finished buying a house

At 21...I was listening to Lauren Hill 'The Miseducation of Lauren Hill'
At 26...I am listening to Jill Scott 'Beautifully Human Words & Sounds Vol.2' and this morning I had the strongest urge to listen to Nas ‘Illmatic”…so I did.

At 21...I was stuck in a tumultulous relationship crying almost every day
At 26...I'm so deeply and happily in love with the most wonderful man in the world that I'm smiling almost every minute of every day (and no, I'm not just saying that)

At 21...I hated drinking
At 26...I say 'pass me the tequila' - again and again

At 21...I had hell of girlfriends and tons of acquaintances
At 26...I realize 99% of those girlfriends were just acquaintances

There’s so much more I can’t even begin…It's amazing what 5 years can do a person. I have changed over the past few years more than the words on this blog can ever say.

I just wonder what the next 5 years will hold. hmmmm...