the biggest turn on

I don't claim to know all the tricks to keeping the flame going in the bedroom, but I can say reminding your mate how beautiful (or sexy) how they are when your in the midst of loving is a GREAT start...

enough said

a day of loving-kindness

ommm shanti....
Some people may read this post and think I'm a crazy ass. But if you have been reading me for a while, you know that I am really into meditation: I do it at least 3 to 5 times a week.

In any case, I awoke this morning happy to be alive and light hearted. Its Friday and I am already on vacation mode. So much, in fact, that all morning I have been practicing the Loving-Kindness Meditation: where I send positive energy to people. This morning, I have sent positive energy to each person that crossed my mind or that I saw. Even that asshole that cut me off this morning almost making me crash into his rear bumper.

So today, continuing on my walking meditation, here's one for all my readers (all 4 of you)

I wish you personal happiness, whatever that may be to you

I wish you and your family the best of health, and the ability to overcome illnesses (this especially goes out to Ms. Mickey Glittter and her papi)

I wish you safety, from danger and ignorance

I wish you a life of ease; may you get that paper $$ and all that good shit

You know, this meditation should be used in anger management classes. It truly works in making you feel like a million bucks. Not only that, it really puts you in that x-mas spirit, ya know ? Why don't you try it ?

cookies anyone ?

After days upon days of helping my mom bake hundred of cookies and x-mas treats for family and friends, I can finally eat a few!! YUM!!

time for another revelation...

Yesterday I took a look at my parents and for the first time in my entire life, saw the reality of how old they are getting. They both looked suddenly shrunken and spots like their hands, legs, and areas around their eyes were starting to look and feel like mis abuelitos (my grandparents). Even though they are relatively young - in early 50s, I started just PLAIN freaking out.

Yesterday, while we were all sitting down for dinner, I started to feel sad thinking about how, in fact, my time is so limited with them. I do try to make it over to visit them at least twice a week - either after work or on the weekends - ya know, between the hustle and bustle of life. But even those few hours a week, is limited in many ways. Just contemplating this fear, I panicked even, thinking and begging for more time with them.

There's still so much I want to share....Things I vow to share like:

~ I have yet to learn 1/2 of the glorious recipes my mom has stored in her membrane

~ Learn more about my dad & moms first years in the USA (like yesterday I learned that 1/2 of my dad's family was forced to pick grapes and live in concentration camp like conditions just to survive - how does one go almost 30 years of her life without knowing something that significant about her papi?!!)

~ Invite them to my house to enjoy a glorious dinner I made specifically for them JUST BECAUSE

~ Go on a family trip together; its been at least a decade...

~ Have them witness my marriage and/or experience being grandparents (between me & my brother, they are getting impatient lemme tell you)


I don't want to bore you with the rest; the list is extensive. It's funny how things come out of nowhere and hit you HARD. All I can say is that I left their house with my eyes wide open last night- knowing that every moment shared with them - no matter how insignificant was precious.

book of the moment

Since the love of my life will be gone for another 2.5 days, I went and brought the book: Freakonomics: A Rogue Economist Explores the Hidden Side of Everything to pass some time. The book is a bit trendy (which usually just isn't my style), but once I opened up the covers and started reading Mr. Levitt's twisted genius, I was hooked. Since last night I have already gone through about 1/2 of it.

At this rate, I might need to get another book before Mike, my sexy man, comes back home.

who am i to judge crazies ??? ;)

I could not believe my eyes this morning while reading the RedEye's article about a group of young vegans named "the rat patrol" scouring the rat infested alleys and dingy garbage cans of Chicago for...(gulp)...recycling (i.e eating) remaining food. In essence, they raid local garbage cans in Chicago's alleys in an attempt to reduce the amount of national waste. What was funny to me is their catchy name: FREEGANS, coming from the intermixing of being vegans and getting free food from garbage cans.

what's for lunch, man?!!!


No matter how much I try to heed their noble vision of reducing national waste, I just cannot fathom their actions. I mean, its kinda a cool concept, but when you get to the nuts and bolts of it, its plain disgusting, unhygenic, and plain old NASTY!!! I can see recycling other things like furniture, computers & books, but FOOD? What are these people thinking ?!!!

I mean, I dearly try not to judge people, even extremists such as these - but GOOD LORD!!! You couldn't pay me enough to go digging for "jewels" of leftover food in garbage cans (both business and residential), especially in Chicago. I've seen some rats the size of kittens driving down these alleys and refuse to even go there.

Its just nuts I tell you, FREAKING NUTS!!!

let it snow...

It's snowing once again in Chicago and despite the added traffic and shoveling times it has caused me, I am loving every second of it.

This morning: It's just me, my green tea, and a smile...

let it snow, let it snow, let it snow - bitches!!!

:)

Stanley "Tookie" Williams

This morning at 12:35 AM GMT, Stanley "Tookie" Williams, one of the founding fathers of the Crips gang and more recently, reformed gangster & Nobel Peace Prize nominee, took his last breath - a result of lethal injection.

While he is responsible for starting a group of gangsters which still continue to this day to be violent and deadly, does his last years of reform and messages of peace mean nothing?

I know its a controversial topic. But honestly, what's your view on his execution now that it's all been said and done ?

i got the job!!!!

As of January '06 I will be officially a proud employee of this fine institution!!

Not only will I be working at one of the most prestigious universities in the country, they will pay for my ivy league education.

Halleluiah! What a x-mas gift!!!

It's confirmed, bush is a failure

Type in "failure" or "miserable failure" in Google and behold...the biography of President Bush on the White House website pops up in the number one spot. Who would have guessed it ?!

Some may ask "Is it a political stance in disguise?" Others say its hackers who did it all. Well to find out the truth, here's Google's response to this occurance of president Bush's GoogleBombing.

That is all...

scattered thoughts

Ok, ok, I was a bit of a melodrama queen yesterday when I posted how terribly lost I am without my boyfriend. While I miss him like my right arm, through the miracle of wifi and his coworkers free after hours long distance plan on her phone, me & my honey were able to talk until bedtime. He is pretty much available any time I need him, even though he is thousands of miles away. I feel much better...

Another thought - I am so sore this morning. Turns out I need new gutters at home more than I had previously thought. Along the whole sidewalk to my house, there was an accumulation of INCHES upon INCHES of ice - so much ice in fact that salt by itself was powerless against it. I had to spend about 2 hours yesterday SLEDGE-HAMMERING it all away. While it was extremely good to take away all my aggression, it left me feeling like I got hit by a car this morning. Just trying to turn my steering wheel in my car made me groan in pain. AHHH! the joys of being a home owner...

Despite the soreness, today is a good morning. I brought some Mighty Leaf Chamomile citrus tea into the office and it's putting me in a glorious mood - extremely rare for a Monday morning. This tea is so damn good!!!

Its so strange that Richard Pryor passed away cuz I was just watching one of his stand up shows last Thursday on Comedy Central. I haven't watched anything with him in it for years. I guess it shouldn't be a surprise though, he looked like he wasn't do so well healthwise for a while now. Rest in peace Mr. Pryor, rest in peace!!!

i'm singing the blues...

My honey left only this morning on a business trip and I miss him so much already. He went to New York and is not set to come back until the 21st of this month!!

I hope the time goes by fast til I see him again, but I have a feeling this is going to be the longest 10 days of my life...

Cheesy I know. But, he truly is my better half and I feel so lost without his arms around me...

somebody stop me...

Chop up my credit cards
Confiscate my debit card
And while your at it disable my 'Net access because:

I have gone x-mas shopping crazy! I have 3 Mozilla tabs up at a time doing comparison shopping whilst I look at the most recent Sunday Circulars. I personally blame it on the new job - where I have tons of extra time to just surf the net.

OH LORDY LORDY...please give me some self control!

calgon...take me away!!!

I am a slave no longer to my house. Both of my units are FINALLY rented and as of this month forward, I only have to put in $50 towards my mortgage. Oh, what a feeling. I feel like I am floating areound this morning on a cloud of happiness. I feel a flood of relief similar to walking into warmth after being in the freezing cold for an unbearable amount of time. Ahhhh....euphoria

Its like everything in my life is starting to fall into place. After a year of shit steadily raining on me, this past month has brought back my faith in life, myself, and most importantly, in a greater power. Something tells me 2006 is going to be a GREAT year. I can honestly say I can't remember being this happy...ever. LIFE IS GOOD.

On the prospective job front, I got a follow up call from the dream job the day after my last set of interviews. She had a few extra questions and said they were going to start calling my references. Thats always a good sign right ? RIGHT?!!! Everyone keeps telling me that I got it, but I keep reminding myself not to keep my hopes up too high. I am keeping my fingers crossed, but until I get an offer, its still up in the air.

Peace and love everyone. Happy Friday. I wish you all the same type of happiness I am feeling right now.